Doubly Blessed +1

I feel like a loser, but I just can't bring myself to post cute pics and act all cheery on my blog or facebook yet. Wallowing will not bring Jordan back or prove anything to anyone. I just don't feel ready. The memorial service was great and I think it helped us all gain more closure, but grief (in my experience) is never fully closed.You have good hours and bad, then good days and bad, then it stretches to weeks and longer. But the grief remains. Hopefully, it does not consume, but it remains. It feels wrong to pretend otherwise. I am continuing to pray for those closest to him-his wife, son, parents, siblings, etc. Their long road is still just beginning.