I Defy You

to find cuter Colts fans anywhere! obviously not referring to the adults




We are no fair weather bunch here either! I grew up rooting for them with my dad and brother and my husband had to hop on the bandwagon to date me. Fast forward 10 years and this is what we've got :) Debating on splurging on a cheerleader uniform for Gracie. Might be worth $20 for the super cuteness.

5 months Old!

A Good Day

Yesterday was really nice. The twinnies went to daycare and it was just Benny and me. I haven't had a day like that in a few weeks. We listened to music, folded laundry, giggled, took pictures, and met a friend for lunch. I really needed the quiet, well, relative quiet, of just one baby. So I got a lot of laundry/organizing done and even made dinner by time daddy and G &T got home (which I almost never do). I felt refreshed and almost peaceful for a few hours.

Thanks little guy.

Random pics

Gracie stealing my new purse as soon as I brought it home. It does go with her outfit.

Never giving them sour cream for dipping EVER. AGAIN.


My cute Benny after his bath

I feel like a loser, but I just can't bring myself to post cute pics and act all cheery on my blog or facebook yet. Wallowing will not bring Jordan back or prove anything to anyone. I just don't feel ready. The memorial service was great and I think it helped us all gain more closure, but grief (in my experience) is never fully closed.You have good hours and bad, then good days and bad, then it stretches to weeks and longer. But the grief remains. Hopefully, it does not consume, but it remains. It feels wrong to pretend otherwise. I am continuing to pray for those closest to him-his wife, son, parents, siblings, etc. Their long road is still just beginning.

When It Rains

There is a small chance Gracie is having seizures. While my mom was babysitting last night she had an episode where she was unresponsive for a couple of minutes, but breathing normally. Freaked her out. Freaks me out that I wasn't here. Took her to the pedi today and she ordered an EEG, but thinks everything looks, sounds good overall. She said it's like looking for proof that you had a migraine. A clean EEG may not mean she didn't have a seizure, but she thinks we shouldn't be too alarmed with what we've described.

My gut instinct last night wasn't good, I have a sort of sinking feeling that we will find something. But that may be just from processing the grief of losing our friend. Expecting the worst and so on. I trust my doctor so I am feeling a little better. The EEG isn't scheduled until Thursday so we will just have to wait! Appreciate prayers for my little miss though. I really hope it was just some fluke thing.

No words

Words fail me today. Our dear friend since college passed away this weekend. He was 28. It was his wife's birthday. They have a 6 month old son. I think she is still in shock, as we all are. My husband lost his best friend. Not sure how I can heal him. Of course I know I can't. Time and the Heavenly Father will have to work on that.

So, to Jordan: We simply love you and we will miss you terribly.