Best Birthday Ever

My husband is the best.  He made me the most beautiful video that is like a photo/video montage of me and the twins to Kanye West's "Hey Mama" song.  I got a card and a gift in the morning and then we watched the video as we fed the babies. Of course I cried all the way through it. If I was tech savvy and knew how to post it I would.  They also made me cupcakes and we spent the day just loving on each other as a family. I am so happy.  There are always things that I could ask for or wish for (like a bigger house), but I am so incredibly blessed to have my family safe and healthy that truly nothing else matters. I am a little weirded out by being 26 now though-I am over half way to 50! yikes!  

I have the day off today! Yay! We still woke up at 6 am thanks to Gracie's high pitched singing from their crib. I think she is teething. This is the 3rd morning in a row she wakes up and just starts singing/squealing.  Tater just lies there and stares at her. This is why we love our video monitor. This morning they gave us 20 minutes before demanding we get up and feed them.  The best part is when they burst out in giggles when they see us at the crib. 

After breakfast we packed them up and had to go to our fertility clinic to sign papers for our cryopreservation. We hadn't anticipated how weird it would feel to be there with the babies. It was sort of surreal.  There was another couple there who looked just like us last year-exhausted, disheartened, and I felt something I didn't expect. Guilt. I wanted to show them the twins to say "see, it can happen for you too!" but then I wished we hadn't brought them and wanted to hide my massive double stroller. I remember what it felt like going to clinic and some "insensitive" woman would bring in her newborn.  The offices have a no children policy, it is supposed to be a safe place for us infertile women not to be bombarded by babies. I would suffer seeing babies out in the real world enough, in my clinic was too close for comfort.  So I understand completely why this couple never made eye contact with us. Not when they were 10 feet away, I recognized their stoic looks and tried to be invisible. It has just been a year since we finally heard we were pg, and this was a sort of full circle moment for us.   I am so thankful to God that He gave us our little miracles and I don't want to ever lose sight of that.  Not everyone is blessed this way.  I am saying a prayer for that couple though. I hope they get to know they joy we have now, it makes the nightmare before it worth while and almost forgettable.

Needing some TQT

Twin Quantity Time!

This week is nuts for me between back to school night, staff meetings, dinner obligation as a bridesmaid and helping my mom move this weekend.  I am definitely feeling like a crappy mom and sometimes I think its amplified as a MoM.  I have little time to begin with and then I have divide it by two!  I have tried and cuddling them at the same time and it is not so fun for them.  Sean and I have been looking forward to Fridays much more than ever (yes, even more than college) and count down the days until another "family day" when we can all be together without work or other responsibilities tugging us away. 

It's a blessing I am a teacher though, I have shorter hours than many and I get days off- like next Friday! So I am trying to keep that in mind. 

We are still trying to decide on Halloween costumes.  Nothing has felt quite right.  I think we've narrowed it down to a lady bug and bumble bee or penguins or a bee and a flower or a mermaid and a pirate. Ideas? Thoughts? 

We have a roller!

Gracie Noel rolled for the first (second and third) time last weekend! So exciting!  We were screaming and scrambling for the camera, she was just like "what's the big deal?" It was great fun. In the advice of a friend I told our daycare lady not to tell us if they do anything "new" at her house. This way we won't know if the first time they speak to us (or whatever) isn't the REAL first time. It would make working so much harder if I knew I missed an important first. Ignorance is bliss!  But she did say she hadn't seen her roll yet, so we did reach that milestone at home.  Tate just looks at her like she's doing something strange and/or pointless when she rolls, but daddy saw him leaning to the side yesterday.  Maybe his sense of twin competition will spur him along.

The weeks seem to be flying by now that school has started.  We have a pretty good routine down and I think the twins are happy which is what matters most.  We are trying to save for a bigger home soon and give them a yard to run around in (as soon as they can run). I can't believe it will be my birthday in a couple of weeks, that's always the beginning of the holiday season for me!  Before we know it we will be celebrating babies' first Halloween, Thanksgiving and then CHRISTMAS!! We can't wait!

Not much to report here.  We are all dealing with a cold and getting through another busy week of work/school/daycare. Yesterday daddy stayed home to give the babies extra cuddles and love since they had runny noses (daddy included). I am glad that he has that kind of job flexibility. This weekend was too fast but we had a great time at an end of the summer BBQ with friends and watching our first Colts game with the twins!  

Here is Gracie and I at the BBQ- Baby Got Barack!

Here is one of 100 pics we took when the babies were all decked out for the game:

The Colts lost, but I made chili and they got to enjoy the whole experience anyway (Ok, it was more fun for us). When they get older we will take them to watch the game with my dad and brother as has been the tradition for many years now.  For now evening games will have to take a back seat to bed time.

On a fun side note, we got called today by the photography studio that did their 2 month shots and they want us to sign a release so that they can use the twins pics for advertisements or samples they show other families. How fun!  I know it's not really a big deal, but it's nice to have someone else recognize the cuteness of our twinnies!  Plus we get free wallets, I'll take those any day!

We Are 4 Months Old!!

4 Month Stats:

Gracie is 13 lbs 9 oz and Tate is 12 lbs 9 oz!  They both are 24 and 3/4 inches exactly!  My babies are getting so big!

It's been awhile...

This working mom thing is tough!  I haven't had time to shower, much less blog!  Things are going well. I started teaching full time again yesterday and it was like riding a bike.  I was afraid after all that time off I wouldn't remember a thing!  I actually like working half days last week, right about the time I started missing the twins I could just go pick them up.  Now I pick them up about 2 and a half hours after I started missing them :( 

We also have our first cold. The three of us actually have it, I don't know how Sean lucked out.  Turns out another baby at daycare had it last week. Luckily they had their 4 month check up Tuesday so she was able to calm my fears and tell me it was totally normal and not in their lungs, etc.  They just have the saddest little coughs and sniffles. Breaks my heart to leave them like that, but with no fever, I need to go to work.  It hasn't affected their moods or sleep either and from what I am told, that's pretty good.

My one concern from daycare is that I pick them up at 3:30 and she says they have only eaten 2 bottles! I drop them at 7:15 (with them fed) and so they should at least be starting the 3rd by time I get there.  She says they didn't want it yet. I don't know. I am just feeding ravenous babies as soon as we get in the door at home. It's fine because I like having at least 2 feedings with them before they go down for the night at 7, but I want to be sure they are getting all they want to eat during the day.  I just feel timid about pressing the matter with her. I don't know. 

Thank God this is only a 3 day work week.  I am missing them like crazy and can't wait to spend a full Saturday with my little ones!  Please tell me this will get easier...